Four months after Karma passed I decided to be brave since I had a dear friend with me  and asked him to take me to a beach up north that was me and Karma’s favorite spot. We would always stop on the way at this outdoor mall where she would pee, then I went into food store and bought sushi and treats for us to share at Beach 69. She loved going there. It was one of our favorite beaches and adventure days. I loved sharing it with Karma. I hadn’t been back since she passed.

When I got out of his car I felt a sudden wave of grief come over me and just stood frozen in the middle of the parking lot sobbing. He took my hand and led me gently into the food store so we could continue on with our day. I was too heart broken to think about food so I just grabbed a random salad.  I asked the cashier for more salad dressing and she told me to go the the deli and ask but it’s an extra charge. With tears in my eyes still I went over and tapped a woman worker on the back. She turned around and hurriedly moved me back telling me I couldn’t be there. (I had walked behind the deli counter by accident). She asked me what I needed and I told her, salad dressing with the saddest face she had probably ever seen. She brought me the salad dressing, no extra charge. Then I looked at her name tag and guess what it said? DAISY! I couldn’t believe it. I mean, you can’t make this up! I was so happy. My heart leapt for joy. I asked her if I could give her a hug. and she said yes. She probably thought I was happy she gave me free salad dressing—Ha ha ha. This little angel had no idea how much she meant to me at that moment. 

These signs from Karma kept coming…too many to blog about. But I know that if my furry four legged bestest friend can still be with me, then whoever you have “lost” and love deeply is still with you. In the midst of these intense emotions I remind myself to breathe. Breath has been my saving grace. It leaves room for the Holy Spirit to come in and do her work. After all, if I am going to say I am a spiritual teacher then I have to walk my talk. 

“Your body is away from me, but there is a window open from my heart to yours.” ~ Rumi

I love you Karma.

It must be working because this morning when I woke up I felt something stirring inside of me that actually felt light and free. I decided to roll with the mantra, “Something good is going to happen today.”

I sat down to do my morning meditation and within two minutes I heard my inner voice tell me to ride my bike to the pier and go for a swim. The last couple of weeks I have not been getting out as much as I’m used to because Karma, my four legged best friend, has not been feeling well.

I listened to my inner voice though, put on my bikini, kissed Karma good-bye and off I went on my bike. When I arrived at the pier, a local homeless man came up to me and told me there were dolphins close. I was so excited. I told him I had a feeling that something good was going to happen. We walked to the end of the pier together and I saw them. There was another man  looking earnestly at the dolphins, I asked him if he was going in. He replied, “I would but how do you get out?” I didn’t care about getting out, the only thing I cared about was getting in!  So I jumped. Usually I go into the ocean by the beach and swim out, but today I wanted to be with the dolphins so bad that I just  jumped off the end of the pier and went after them.

They were many of them swimming around and about a dozen people. No one seemed as excited as me however, which I thought was uncanny. I was laughing out loud for joy every time one of them jumped out and spun around. It was like they were putting on a show for us.

After about twenty minutes they disappeared and everyone left, except me. I floated on my back for a couple of minutes then went under water and said, “Come back, come back, I love you.”  Within minutes they were back- an entire pod swam right toward me. As much as I love dolphins and the ocean, there’s a vulnerability about being alone floating in the middle of the ocean with an entire pack of mammals beelining it toward you. It can be a little unnerving at first.

I assured myself I was safe and went under water. It was surreal watching them just floating through the water effortlessly in a pack with the babies too. They swam under me and around me a few times then came up. The playful one of the bunch did his jumping for joy show for me. i laughed out loud like a little kid. It was magical.

When they swam under me I floated on my stomach and just watched them, then without warning I started sobbing. I don’t think I’ve ever cried like that. It wasn’t a sad sob, more of a deep appreciation for everything- for the dolphins, for Gaia, God, the universe, the ocean, my life, everything. Words don’t do it justice. There was such a connection I felt oneness with everything in that moment.

This was one of the many dolphin stories I have experienced since I moved to Hawaii. I actually have dolphin stories from Long Island too when I came home over the summer last year that blew my mind.

What I’ve observed, is that they show up for me out of the blue when I’m in my highest joy and vibration, which makes sense. We attract what we put out. Dolphin message is all about fun, play and community. You rarely see a dolphin traveling alone.

I wanted to share this with you because all that is happening in the world can be scary and confusing. These are uncertain times for all of us. The dolphins message for me was don’t forget to jump for joy. it is still posable to have joy and feel joy even with what’s happening around us. It’s the only thing that matters, otherwise what’s the point of life?

I hope you can feel the dolphin playful energy through my communication. Be happy, find your bliss, go for your joy and when you falter, remember the spinning jumping joyful dolphins.

With love, Soulfire