As a sensitive soul who feels everything so deeply, an empath times 100, and a spiritual teacher, it is a challenge to live in this world today.  I know I must hold the light energy and be the change for higher unity consciousness and a new earth. With that said I also choose not to put my head in the sand and ignore what’s going in the world. I choose to be informed but not dwell on what’s happening in 3D.  I personally think spiritually bypassing the current events is not a wise move because until we have ascended into 5D we are still part of this society and live here in 3D. Nonetheless, it is a fine balance especially when you are an emotional person, Pisces sun/Scorpio moon. (This is the part when people that understand astrology suck their teeth and give me the oh man look) I get angry, I get enraged, I get sad, my heart breaks and so on…just like everyone else.  We are in a battle for our souls right now on planet earth— for our innate freedom and sovereignty. It’s kind of a big deal don’t ya think?!

If I let it, it can bring me down into depression for days….so I don’t. I have to be strong, be a warrior. I ignite the fire in my soul and decide to do what I can to make a difference in my corner of the universe….which is to be of service when I can, to help when I can…without compromising my healthy boundaries. Me first, is what I have come to learn on my spiritual journey of healing. Teach myself, then teach the world. Each of us matters just as much as anyone else. It is not more “holy” or “spiritual” to be a martyr and sacrifice your own well being for another. That is the old way of living/belief that no longer serves higher unity consciousness. 

With that said the other day I was driving down Alli Drive around 3pm, the hottest time of the day in the middle of vog from the volcano erupting. I passed by a young man that lives on the street who has a sweet spot in my heart. He waved to me and I waved back. If you live in Kona you probably know this young man (I will keep his name private anyway) He collects the bottles and recyclables on his skateboard. On this day I noticed he had an unusual amount of black garbage bags filled to the brim that he was struggling to skate with. As I continued to drive I said a prayer for him. I asked God to send an angel to his side to be of assistance. God replied, “Why don’t you?” Good point God (Duh). I immediately did a U turn and drove back. 

“Do you need help?’ I asked him pulling over off the busy road. “Yes,” he replied, “I am trying to get to the recycling place before it closes at 4pm.” It was already 3, so we loaded his four huge garbage bags into my van. I had to shut off my germ a phobic mind thoughts and repeat internally, it’s going to be ok over and over as the bottles fell out of the garbage bags in to my always clean van. Luckily we had extra cardboard to put down to protect the interior and he also offered air freshener (so thoughtful).

Now I had a good 10 minutes with this young man so I was excited, After a couple of formalities I got straight to “the question” (New Yorker though and through) “So what is your deal?” 

He opened up and told me his story, which broke my heart and took everything in my power to not get emotional and cry which I’m doing now by the way as I write this piece (that is why writing is so powerful, it helps to process emotions that otherwise can get stuck in your body). His story I will also keep private, but man, it is a heavy heartbreaker.

I dropped him off on time and told him if he needed anything I was here for him (wanting to do more of course, to give him a home). The amount of trauma and tragedy that people on this island have suffered is beyond. With that said, the amount of kindness, humbleness and aloha that people here have and are is beyond as well. I try to keep that in mind as I go about my day, thinking I have stress or get in a rush. 

I pray for all. I pray that no one is forgotten. May all beings everywhere be free from suffering.  And may there be angels and aloha by their side at all times. Amen.